Tim L asked:


I am very scientific minded. I was tested once and found to have very high levels of “verbal reasoning” and “scientific reasoning”. I’ve been on a search for the ultimate truth of things and found it to be a double-edged sword. Most of my adult life I’ve suffered from low self-esteem and self-image. What I’ve discovered is that self-esteem is based entirely on illusions about who we are and what the world is. So now I’m left with not even hardly a self at all. All of human affairs and life in general seems like a cosmic freak show to me. Life seems to have arisen completely by accident in an area of the infinite universe with just the right conditions and physical constants for this all to happen. Life seems like an absurdity in the extreme. How can I keep from going completely insane? Everything I see now just seems random and chaotic. Where others see order and control I see complete chaos and madness. Maybe I am already insane.

truth sojourner